This week we’re giving away a free song from Todd Agnew’s newest album Need and we had the chance to connect with him about some of the inspiration behind it. Todd had some very deep and thought provoking explanations to share about his experiences over the last year and what god has been teaching him through it.
“The perfect version of me still has a deep need for God,” Agnew says. “It’s the ongoing conversation we have with God: ‘you’re supposed to need me from the beginning. Need is not a bad thing; it’s something that ties this relationship together the correct way of me being God and you not.’ You really have to learn that and think ‘that’s what I was made, how I was designed.’ And that’s how this music was designed, as well.”
Todd has recently gone through some big changes in his life, some of which include getting married, becoming a stepfather, and moving back to his home state of Texas. “It was a pretty big life change all of a sudden,” Todd says “I think I closed on my house on a Thursday and got married on a Saturday. I went from ‘single musician guy with no responsibilities’ to ‘homeowner, husband, father of two’ in 48 hours.”
“It’s incredible, but it’s also definitely hard. There’s nothing that can prepare you for that kind of a life change, especially someone like me, who notices every detail of every failure on my part,” Todd says. “Being a husband is one thing, raising two kids is another. You can find yourself thinking, ‘Man, I didn’t do a very good job again today.’”
Todd says that his song “Written On The Wall” (which he’s giving us for free this month) typifies a quest that he never even realized he was on during the making of Need. “It comes from a place of saying ‘I don’t understand all this stuff.’ I want to follow, I want to do what he wants me to do, if only he’d make it a little more obvious,” Todd admits.
“This record is definitely the hardest one I’ve worked on so far. It was much more of a struggling process, spread out over more than a year,” Todd says. “Finally I come to the place at the end where God goes, ‘What you need is for me to be active in what you’re doing.’”
“I thought it was about me needing answers, so I could do God’s work for him. Give me the plan so I can go do this for you. Wanting to understand those things,” Todd says. “But I started to realize that what I thought I needed wasn’t exactly accurate. I really needed to learn to be dependent on God for everything.”
Todd looks up, respectfully asking for one more need to be fulfilled. “And if you’d like to give me some instruction that would be awesome.”
“One after another, we learn that we have a need to be loved, to be rescued, to be redeemed, to be restored, all these things. Those are the universal needs, and they are all met in Jesus,” he continues. “It’s a matter of trusting God to help me walk through that, even though I don’t know what I’m doing.”
To learn more about the album you can visit Todd’s website and blog at www.toddagnew.com or click here to sample the rest of the songs and watch a video interview with Todd.